You've discovered one of the more powerful motivators. An experience you would rather move away from. It's pretty normal to experience motivation in this way. In all probabilty the movie won't have a lasting effect. So you're not broken and don't need fixing

In the other posts you asked what paraliminals can help with your motivation.
I personally recommend Ideal Mindset course. This course has the necessary paraliminals that will help you towards your goals and more importantly the coaching on how to use the paraliminals inorder to work toward your goals well as the coaching to go with them. I found the coaching gave me a terrific insight as to just how you can use the paraliminals. Having specific information on how to use the paraliminal tapes made choosing the right paraliminal a whole lot easier.
The Natural Brilliance course is also good for moving toward goals and helps you get unstuck. It has its own set of paraliminals.
If you only want one paraliminal start with I suggest Getting Around To It (It's one of the paraliminals in the Ideal Mindset course.) Whatever you do it's up to you to take action.
Alex