Hi Gallen. Your post on Sept. 29 for 'sallp' gave me something to think about.
"Stay in the present & Keep an awareness of the present."
Doing all the active and meditation exercises up to 5 hours every day for several month, it probably is routine now. I think my mind got lazy and get me off the track. Using all the tricks in the book with all the trimmings; 30 min. rule, best time of the day, Yin/Yang water and more.
I've noticed when I lost track, then I feel a lot stronger sensation in the hands.
While I'm a very strong negative person, things will try to go the other way.
All my life when I start a project negative and make it then positive. If it didn't work, I am still happy because I already figured that. So, anytime I would think I gone make a sale, then it wouldn't happen and I will blame myself.
There is so match more to tell before anyone could help me, and you might get bored if I go on, because I have to relive my upbringing and struggle thereafter. I better stop now, it would be unbelievably.
I would appreciate if you will reply, or someone else who is serious helping me, then I can come up with some better details. I know, I have to change my attitude 180 degree, one way or another. This time I'm already positive.
Spring forest qigong is my last stop on this earth.
Love, John
