First off, I would say that you shouldn't ask "What is wrong with me" because your mind is going to find an answer to that one even if it has to make it up.
If you put the smile on your face and keep thinking that this is the most beautiful thing you have ever done and generate those type feelings you probably find it becoming much easier. Do not let your mind pull you into thinking it is hard and efforting because if you focus on that, that is what you get more of.
Jeff
