Nacho.....Here's a possible explanation for you to examine.........In life we are often the effect of COUNTER INTENTION, COUNTER THOUGHT........by that I mean an opposing
idea to yours.
People around you might be expressing their counter ideas to you, and you're being affected by it.
Consider this: thought is powerful. And when someone tosses a thought into the world, it sticks, it moves, it alters behavior, it can alter health.
And if someone is even hinting, or mildly suggesting a COUNTER THOUGHT, it will affect you. It could shut you down, so to speak.
Now the most important COUNTER THOUGHT to look for is that expressed by a SP.
(suppressive person).
SPs exist all over society. They crush good ideas. They make you feel worthless.
They shrink your abilities. They cause
all sorts of weaknesses, and many times we don't detect their presence.
An SP might be your cousin, your neighbor, your boss, your motherin law, your golfing buddy.........
So, do some serious study and you just might find the answer to your question.
Best of luck.