Okay, I'm going to be honest, and say something that might not make any sense, but I'm going to say it anyway. I trully believe Master Lin's Small Universe meditation has helped me bring out a part of myself that I've been longing for for years. The part of me that can deal with situations quick and logically, read a person's thoughts through their words and gestures, and present goals and dreams that can actually be met through much work and perserverance (which this part of me can also provide). However, and this is the weird part, I believe that Master Lin's meditation has also brought out the part of a me that I've been trying to ignore for many years now. The part of me that prevents me from seeing humor in obviously humorous situations, the part of me that deplores inner honesty, that doesn't like feelings of happiness or love, and the part of me that I've never been able to explain since it came to my being three+ years ago. Every second I spend writing this I feel myself slipping into the coma like state I've been in for about a year and a half now, where both sides of myself are ignored so I can finally relax on a physical level. Hear me, I don't want to relax if it means becoming unnaware of my life, and my surroundings, and so I continue to keep the anxiety that comes with the awareness until I find someway to rid myself of it. However, lately that task has grown much more complicated. I cannot sleep with this anxiety, and when the time comes to do Small Universe I become so tired that I cannot go longer than a minute without falling out of consciousness.
I'm not sure what these healing sessions are you speak of, but if there's a possibility they will help please sign me up.
[This message has been edited by Nacho (edited December 07, 2004).]
