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Originally posted by Nacho:
I lie down, I close my eyes, I don't sleep. I don't see where the internal struggles are happening here. I try to rest, and I can't. I stay up, accepting that my mind cannot rest, and I'm a zombie the next morning. I'm tired, which means I don't have the time, or energy to struggle with it, and yet it still comes. I stop meditating, and it goes away, but now my mental, and spiritual growth have stunted, now what?
I went through a period of insomnia a number
of years ago. Besides therapy and meditation,
I couldn't allow myself to go to sleep. Lying
down did no good; my mind was always racing.
My therapist couldn't help me other than to
say that it would eventually end; and it
did. It took about three or four weeks. It
was a scary time.
I had started down a spiritual path and there
was no turning back. The only way out was to go
further in. I had to ride what was happening.
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I trully believe Master Lin's Small Universe meditation has helped me bring out a part of myself that I've been longing for for years. The part of me that can deal with situations quick and logically, read a person's thoughts through their words and gestures, and present goals and dreams that can actually be met through much work and perserverance (which this part of me can also provide). However, and this is the weird part, I believe that Master Lin's meditation has also brought out the part of a me that I've been trying to ignore for many years now. The part of me that prevents me from seeing humor in obviously humorous situations, the part of me that deplores inner honesty, that doesn't like feelings of happiness or love, and the part of me that I've never been able to explain since it came to my being three+ years ago.
If you can get it, read the book:
The Dark Side of The Light Chasers
by Debbie Ford. It's in paperback.
She describes what you are going through
and how to deal with it. I wish I had had
a book like that years ago.
I, as others have, encourage you to
continue the active exercises as much
as you can. Eventually you will be
able to return to the other meditations.
Gianni
