One more thing, Iam... Yoy mentioned release control. That's what has been extremely difficult for me.
I always had the urge to know and control everything that's going on, both inside me and outside my body. I can see now it's a "family heritage", my mother has this tendency too.
Releasing. releasing. Until now this word has not had any meaning to me. I think it will start to mena something.
(BTW, you may think that I'm "thinking too much" again. But no, this message was more like a stream of consciousness from my OTC mind. I did not know what I was going to write before I wrote it.)
-purjo
