Has anybody else noticed that an intensive session of SFQ can give rise to unpleasant emotions? Iam2 hinted at this a long time ago in one posting but I don't recall anything else.
Specifically I can suffer from quite intense feelings of anger, hatred etc which don't feel quite real but they do feel like something 'coming to the surface'.
I was stunned the other day to realise that I had been quite 'held' by negative angry feelings against individuals that I am quite ashamed of, to tell the truth and yet they were there seemingly out of my 'control' and seemed to hold me back from moving on in terms of my general energy. On this forum we do sometimes speak of physical pains etc arising from SFQ practice but not of emotional or even spiritual 'pains'. (I'm allowed not to talk about them because I'm British but...)
I'm partly writing this because having had some SFQ healing last week I noticed that a long held disregard for some individuals had been replaced by something quite different - a tolerance and much more kindly or compassionate view of their actions which I found altogether more pleasant and 'worthy' of the 'me' I hoped I was. What I found extraordinary is how different this experience was from consciously deciding that I could work with these negative feelings and discovering that it was very difficult. It was as if the healing released those negative feelings in some magical way that left me much freer but also that until the negative feelings had been replaced by much more of the love, kindness and forgiveness that Chunyi talks about that I wasn't even able to notice properly how lacking in those qualities I had been with regard to certain people in my life.
I suppose partly I'm sharing the mystery of this as well as the pleasure and wondering if others have experiences to report within this important area.
Love
Kev
