You don't sound like you need my two cents. You've had your experience and seen the good that came from it.
My one comment was going to be about you're judging the feelings as bad. Energy is just energy. Maybe it is in the wrong place, maybe it flow is along the wrong path, but it is just energy.
So-called negative feelings, emotional or physical, are gifts. They provide guidance; either as help in choosing a path or as sign-post showing your progression. They are energy that should be flowing, do not hold on to them. Be thankful for all of the energy and confident you are traveling along the right path for you.
You are perfection.
Iam2 
