Well, thankyou all for your comments. Since I can't possibly respond to them all, please know that I have taken all your responses into consideration and will continue reading through any future replies as I continue to work through this situation of mine. Aside from that, please allow me to update you with what I'm experiencing and respond to whatever comments I remember at the time of writing this.

First and foremost, Gallen, while reading your post SPECIFICALLY I was able to feel the energy in my body from my upper dantian up into my head and face. Why this was I have no idea, but I thought you might like to know. Otherwise, if I can manage to check my what future work schedule looks like I'll send you an email and maybe we can work something out. (oh man, do I feel woozy. After I was done with your post I slowly moved back down to my lower dantian whilst experiencing some unusual, and unpleasant side effects).

To Iam2, when calling upon my Master's for help I make it a point to make my requests very broad. You say "ask for the 'good' things to be part of your everyday life" and that's just not me. I really don't know what's good for me, or what should be part of my life so when I call upon my Master's energy it will usually be something more like "Please send me energy to help me have the best meditation I can possibly have today... Please send me energy to help me with my situation.... Please send me energy to help me understand... etc.". Then I do my best to experience what my Masters think is the best route for me.

After writing last night's reply I asked my Masters in the same style for help. What resulted was the torment in my heart doubling causing me to scream two or three times at the top of my lungs. What resulted was a completely unexpected much-needed surge of relaxation.

I really don't know how you, or the people here giving me their advice and comments work through their qigong, but I make sure to put as much awareness as I possibly can on my heart (or heart chakra). I... sigh...

Bleh, I'm starting to wear myself out. I was hoping to give you guys another overview of my qigong went today, but I'm having trouble finding the enrgy. Breifly, I realized I wasn't capable of meditating (and don't anybody give the "it's in your mind" crap - my body (specifically my heart) was not up to the challenge (though I really shouldn't call it that)).

Again, I hope whatever point I was trying to make was clearly stated because I'm not to reread all of that. Thanks for your time, and comments.

MJ