Hi Purjo,
It 'is' difficult to put language to what we experience.
I didn't address that part of your original post, that you find yourself still left with! I didn't go there.
There is further understanding to gain from within, through the process of your practice.
I liked reading the recent post by delacy in regards to what I am saying here. Insight and understanding, greater awareness, , all benefits to practice. We are our own source of wisdom and truth, and our practice connects us to that. Going back to your practice, in the purest sense, is always a good course of action.

love,
gallen

[This message has been edited by Shawn_Grim (edited January 16, 2006).]