Hi Scorpionsbabe
Welcome to SFQ and, the three most important qualities that Master Lin talks about in SFQ, being love, kindness and forgiveness, all of which you will get in abundance through your practice and sharing information and knowledge with the wonderful people on this forum. I should also say that these three qualities are something that you can and should also start giving to you yourself in abundance.
I feel very sad for the little girl in you that is still feeling such pain and suffering from the abuse she suffered at such a young age. She needs to be released so please surrender your shame and self-hatred to the Universe - use the self-concentration meditation on CD6 - track 2 and turn all of the negative feelings in your body (name them specifically) into smoke and send them back to the universe. You weren't responsible and you can't change the fact that it happened to you. Be kind to yourself, love who you are, nurture and respect your very valuable body, and forgive the people that were responsible for your ongoing pain ( this part won't be easy - and I'm speaking from personal experience, but it is necessary).
I've heard a saying and I can't remember it exactly, but effectively it meant that we make a poison for our enemies and then we drink it ourselves- in other words they are free and we suffer the pain we intended for them. Let it be.
You can heal yourself and SFQ is the perfect tool - I look forward to watching your journey.
Love
Jetay
