Hi Dean,
I think you hit the right button.... As far as I know my heart is not in it. Actually there are very few things I can do with my heart in it. I'm all head (an engineer 
) <sigh>
Well maybe that's an exaggeration. But at the moment I don't know how to put my hear in my practice. And that's a long story, I wouldn't like to go into it. (I would sound too much like a whining idiot.) But there are certain factors in my life and in my system that I have to take into account and respect.
