hello my name is Will
Im posting this because I believe there is alot of wise people here. Im looking for some help that started since I left high school. I started going when i was 15 years old. I was home schooled before that and had never even been to a public school before. I wanted to go becuase i thought i needed better schooling and I wanted to make some freinds. I had none at the time. Due to a recent move we had made from a area i had lived in. But it did not work out as well as i had hoped. My grades were bad, i had no friends, and every thing was so new to me it felt like i was on another planet.
I felt like a outcast people would call me stupid, wierd or crazy and scary right to my face. I know i was none of those thing's. I was just trying to fit in and dident know how to act to be liked. If only i was my self i know i would have had a friend. I left after a year or so becuase my brain felt like glue i had anxiety attacks when i took any test and being around people that i felt dident like me made me feel sad. After this I was angry at the kids i went to school with and also the teachers but mostly I was angry at myself. over time i have forgiven the kids and the teachers. They dident know my past and i never talked about my problem with anyone. so I tryed to focuse on the future like getting a GED witch is a General education deploma. To do this i have to study for it and finaly take the test. Its been hard for me because every time a try and study it feals as if im fighting with myself i dont know were to begine. It feals like im still angry with school and want nothing to do with the system of taking a test. every time i think about it i feal angry and sad. Any advice I would like very much.
Thank You for taking the time to read this
