please fogive the grammar usage for i shall use my chat room format as that flows easiest for me ,,,,,,,,,, hmmmmmmmmmmm i received "anxiety free" recently and have used it a couple of times now. I have noticed that i am not conscious of either right or left side as the tape progress as i my mind wonders. the wondering seems to be a focusing on what i discern to be the root of the specific cause for the anxious feelings.

Let me be a little more specific. Over the past few months the company i work for has been having meetings with the key players of our warehouse distribution people with the general manager and president. I have been invited to attend as an observer as i managed the warehouse in its infancy. I was moved into an administrative position some four years ago after a manic episode w/ psychosis. As you can determine i am bipolar, (manic - depressive). As far as moods go i am very stable now with an upward flight here and there that is very manageable. I never had anxious feelings until after this episode. Understanding memory i realize i have a period of my history that is difficult to remember having suffered from what is known as "hysterical amnesia" cause by consious defined as "a need, conscious or unconscious, to escape from intolerable anxiety."

recently i introduced an "awesome read" to the management of our company titled, "Now, Discover Your Strengths," by Marcus Buckingham & Donald O. Clifton, Ph.D. The book is a work from the Gallup Organization and is the fruition of countless years of research. The main premise is that as a working society over the past 30 years we have focused on weakness rather than strengths. Strenths are composed of talents--that which is natural or initate, skills--that which is honed and practiced and knowledge--both experiential and factual. Along with the book comes a secret code and a website to take a survey test that determines your highest ranked five talents to which you would use as a foundation to build your strenghts upon. Of the 34 talents mine were--Learner, Input, Achiever, Deliberative and Futuristic. You'll have to get the book for full understanding of these and the remaining 29 talents.

I shared the results of this test, though i truly don't like this word for this i shall use it, with the owner of the company and the president. This leads me to where i am at today. Having been invited to sit in and offer my input with these meetings i feel they are slowly introducing me into the mainstream of companies management, though not necessarily as a direct participant but more as a quiet consultant.

More recently, i was quietly challenged to give my ideas on restructuring the warehouse system for our company its 26 stores. THIS IS A CHALLENGE IN MY MIND AND GIVES ME GREAT OPPORTUNITY TO USE THESE TALENTS AND THE NEWLY FOUND TOOL OF DISCOVERY "PHOTOREADING."
I used the photoreading methodology for approaching the problem. I photoread a portion of my personal library and THEN i photoread the problem in my head while mind mapping it and it's many tenacles, (i use a mind mapping software available through http://www.conceptdraw.com/en/

The anxiety that was prominent while i listened to side A of the paraliminal is what is there reaction going to be when my excitement level is high and i offer maybe weird concepts and submit strange material to be evaluated. Are they going to think i "LOST IT" again, (the last manic episode w/psychosis revolved at work for a 10 day period before hospitalized.)

Well, this was a long post of sharing, mind searching and i guess therapy too. I wondered for awhile if i should go ahead and post and i guess what the heck,,,,,,,,, yep i am gonna

In conclusion to this array of typed words of historical informaion as well as conceptual sharing i have some inner peace. I feel more inner peace as i am sharing rather than just doing a normal jouring process.

Finally, the optimum question is? with the paraliminal tape "Anxiety Free" is not consciouly focused on either right or left audible messages ok if that distraction is a thought process or wandering of the mind? Secondly, are any of you willing to share your experience with this paraliminal?

I must leave now as it has been an hour since listening to this tape and it is time to listen to "Personal Genius" and then get back to illustrating possible paths to the "challenge!"

bye for now and thanks, iamog