Hey, ive been trying to fix my shyness and other things and just be me, but me is reserved, quiet, independent, and not very outgoing. I feel like a fake every time I successfully put on my act of a cool outgoing guy (which is a lot). I can sit in a room by myself for hours and never feel bored. I really want to be someone people look up to seeing, like two of my friends I left by moving to a new town. I really wish to emulate them. They were never afraid of what people thought of them, and for that, they were hillarious, super-energetic, spontaneous,always happy when seen, and they were amazingly confident. Being with them was amazing, I could even tell my friend was laughing at anything I thought was funny, just to make me feel funny, and I did feel pretty funny around him. It seems I do actually have another personality deep inside of me. I can remember a few times it came out, for example, when I have an energy drink, when I went to homecoming, and other days. I dont have a planned set of friends that I hang out with, or even a best friend who I hang out with for that matter. I really want to have this kind of feeling on people, because it would make me feel great on the inside and outside. So, is this kind of change possible with a paraliminal, or is it just another fantasy I have? BTW, I tried Personal Magnetism about 4 times now, and it has helped a little, but im still not the person with a smile on their face around people. I really need a BIG change, one that will change me forever.
Add on: People think im a snob sometimes, and they think im disinterested in them because I dont show my emotions very much, and become disinterested in me a lot