Thank you for your reply Sandy. When I say the universe gets in the way, yes, I am refering to the things that are out of my control. The universe has always been around but has never had this much affect on what I am doing. In the past I have always been able to respond possitively to current events, or what ever the universe throws at me and even turn them to my favor.
It is because of the past and the fact that I have always been able to do the things, anything that I want, that I am so stumped by this. I still believe that with enough persistence and determination I will be able to get thru this too. The only difference between the past and now is that what I have tried to accomplish has always been for someone else. I have certain skills that I need to practice and I have been unable to practice them, it is not always events that have stopped me. (I also believe you attract events to you by what you think, do and feel)
So, it is not other people. It is me and I know it is me, I just don't know what it is in me that I have not been able to go thru or get around.
It sounds like the Natural Brilliance or New Option Generator may help, but as I am writing this I don't feel that they will. (and of course that in itself can be self-limiting but in this case I feel it is directing rather than self-limiting) Is there something else? In the mean time I will start working with Natural Brilliance.
I just want to say, the paralimnals I have used have helped me in many different ways and I am thrilled to find such powerful tools to help me develop myself. They work in ways that would have taken years to do on my own.
