thanks for your suggestions timtim and vaibhav.
Its hard for me to see the lesson I get when we foolishly or ignorantly hurt others, perhaps not intentionally or physically hurt but emotionally hurt etc. I guess on one level I see that it should not be repeated for it hurts me as well for years to come. However I acknowledge there is so much I dont understand beyond this.
I have the New Behaviour and New Option tapes but did not realise they can be applied in this way vaibhav
it sounds like you both have had success with the New History Generator which gives me some hope it may work for me
best regards