Last night, I tried it again, but I am still having a hard time. I can describe the behaviors I want to have, and I have a model that has those behaviors. But when I listen to the tapes, it is like I am just watching someone else. I am watching from a distance instead of experiencing the effects. When the voice says that those behaviors are becoming my own, it feels like it is having no effect at all. I listened twice in a row last night, but I feel exactly the same as I did before. As a matter of fact, I am feeling a little bit more nervous. Does that mean that it isn't working? If I can see the model with the right behaviors and I can't experience them for myself while listening, is that good enough? Is it enough just to visualize another person with the behavior while listening? I have to admit, the first time a listened, the effects were dramatic. This time, it seems like I may have wasted my time. That makes me think that the results that I experienced the first time may have just been a fluke.
