Hi Mitchell,
Relax, life is a sequence of ups and downs and everything is allright with you. I can't help feeling it, but your mail tells me that you are in a state of panic. Please correct me, if I am wrong.
I have ordered my Abundance for Life course and it is on its way so I can't guide you with anything specific in the course, but I will try to make some general comments to help you out of your situation. As far as your negative thoughts are concerned, don't resist them, let them flow. Don't pay attention to them, just discard them and tell yourself that this is not possible and try replacing that thought with a positive thought instead. You can listen to some self-help audio books if you have. You can also listen to the Paraliminals - Self Esteem Supercharger, Deep Relaxation.
Try watching an inspirational movie or read few inspirational strories. Write or talk about your dreams. And I believe that you will be centered once again.
I hope I have been of some help to you.
God Bless You.
Kind regards
Vaibhav Sharma