Hi Alex,
I don't know what to make of your answer. You mostly reacted to the words that form the message. Not the phenomenon itself. There is something lying behind all this!!! I need help and support to be able to deal with them! That's why I asked anyone who wants to help me to to abandon their presuppositions. Be open and curious!! Especially you, Alex. I'm quite sure you can help me if you let your OTC mind do the helping. Your conscious mind knows too much stuff about other people and yourself, so it's views and attitudes are limited.
I have written numerous messages in this forum, you must have some kind of idea how my mind works. Use that knowledge.
I remember vita-man being closest to understanding what makes me tick when he wrote these words "go away a little closer". Then he wrote he didn't know why he wrote these exact words!! They touched me deeply.
Alex, you can go further. You can help me. Just do it.
The words I'm able to write don't frighten me anymore. It's something else. Maybe there is no word for it.
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