Today...
The fear I'm feeling is starting to be almost intolerable now. Unfortunately I feel the fear most when working... I'm getting almost paralysed when thinking of myself doing my most important duties. Just almost.
Obviously SA has released this fear in me. It has been there as far as I rmember backwards. Always poresent when I had to do something I considered important. Like a trustworthy friend.
Alex reframed fear in one of her replies... but it does not help me much. I sincerely wish I had enough resouces to get rid of this rear. Going this all through the hard way is not what I consider time of my life. I'm sure there is someone who could help me here, if not Alex, then someone else. The problem is of course, I don't know what resources I need and how someone can give them to me. That's up to the universe or whatever it's called. (To be true, I don't much care about the universe except in the physical sense. I just used the word for the lack of a better one.)
I hope the best for me.
[He].2s2.2p4
