Hi Babayada;
When I was younger and just getting out there in the world my conditioning was such that I "had to control confusion", confusion was not not an optimum state to be in.
Having been one of those skinny kids that seemed to get beat up all the time, confusion to me was like ones of these bullies. The panic attack, fear wave was just another bully to overcome.
Going beyond this, what I really had to learn was to overcome myself.
So what if there is confusion? It is an energy that has a life of it's own and must run it's course or you can latch onto it and control the direction it takes if you are prepared to do such a thing.
Jumping into a bunch of confusion without a plan is like jumping into a tornado. See you later Toto.
When I look back, at the time I thought, it seemed that learning of the "Stable Datum" and lighting a torch for all to see was a masterpiece of work. It has been a valuable tool for me in life.
Now with a few years of maturity, probably "the moment" was sitting there and just observing it all. I was empty of mind, had no control, it was dark with steam valves screaming and people running all over the deck plates.
Boiler water under pressure is fine. If you lose pressure the water will flash and one gallon of water becomes 1700 gallons of steam. No escape from that.
So there really wasn't anything to worry about or another way of looking at it, worrying would do nothing for us.
When your mind is amped out you will not come up with any answers or proper actions.
So in this and other training my boiled down principle that surfaced for me was " A calm mind is your greatest asset." period.
When confusion or daily life strikes.
rule 1:
A calm mind is your greatest asset.
rule 2;
Enjoy boredom. It's your friend.
I think this also is the point you want to get to in Martial Arts training. My Sensei always scolded me to "Just Relax, do nothing" but he was not talking about my body, which took years to figure out.
All the best
Jeff
