Dear Josiah and Catherine
Thank you for your thoughts and encouragements.
Catherine - you are right that I have now & then listened to the voice of depression and maybe this is exactly the learning that I need to be taking from this condition. Throughout most of my life I have managed to see or feel into the positive side of challenging situations, but because of the slow, steady debilitating physical effects of this, I have struggled to avoid feeling a victim of 'it'. I don't make the assumption that it will move to full blown MS, although as I've said, the direction the physical condition has gone in so far has only been one way - worse. Emotionally, I go up and down (like any one else!). I have heard of many many different ways that MS manifests and does or doesn't progress - so I think I have a fairly open mind about where it might or might not go.
I like the phrase "releasing the rock of the memory..." There is something in there that rings true about how I hold my mother's memory - as a fairly weighty rock. That gives me a new angle to work with - thank you. It feels good to have shared this with you and I do feel encouraged to try being a little more consistent with my practice. And to remain open to assistance from any direction of the Universe.
With love
Mick
