Alex,
Are you suggesting that I should listen to New History Generator, session A followed by Positive Relationship INSTEAD OF prosperity and then again in the evening listen to session B of New History Generator?
It is soooo hard to focus on only that, that I want but I am positive that by now over 80% of my thoughts are geared towards the wants than don't wants. But I will try your suggestion.
I can't explain why I don't have any real friends. Sabotaging the relationship is the only explanation I have. I do things that upset people. I do things maybe because I have low self esteem. Low self esteem stems from betrayal of trust I experience 14 years ago. That negative memory is still hovering within every cell of my body. Hence, my conclusion.
I just need to find a way - a permanent way to get rid of that negative memory - because it looks like I am just not able to get any further with it being still so fresh in my mind. I hope this works. I will substitute prosperity for positive relationships.
Thanks! Will keep you posted.
