greetings. I'm brand new to this site. I had some reactions to your post:

"Feeling frustrated and unfairly treated."

"I find that when I need to flow feelings of gratitude, I don't. Instead, I chase my negative train to the point of tears."

"I have trust issues. I am seeing a counsellor - who frankly isn't helping any more than the help I am getting here. He would have been an immense help - but he is not currently because he is telling me stuff I already know"

"Every single time something great happens, I sabotage it by holding back and behaving in a manner that makes other people think I am being difficult - Then - I get hurt anyway!

"New History Generator hasn't shown any results. LOA isn't working."

I quoted these comments because as someone who doesn't know you, I am hearing blame blame blame. You seem to be expecting other people and things to be fixing you.

No one is to blame. You are choosing negativity. It's that simple. How do you make the switch to positivity? You stop blaming other people, and you stop perceiving yourself as a person who has trust issues! Decide that you are a brand new person who is willing to throw themself into the mix of life, even to get hurt. Aren't you hurting now anyway? So, try something new. Try smiling, saying yes, trusting. The trust starts with you. Trust that you are okay. Trust yourself.

Do you want to trust? Do you want to change, to try being happy? Until you decide to make that leap of faith, you will continue to cling to pain, and blame, and defending your negativity.

You are the power in your life. You are the Generator and Attractor of all. No CD, no therapist, no post, no book, is here to fix you. They are tools. And they are only valuable if you use them. Change is easier than you think. Decide that. Change is easy. Happiness is easy. Trust is easy. Take the leap of faith. Try it for a day, thinking new thoughts "I trust people. I trust people. I trust life. I AM OKAY. I DON'T NEED HELP" Heck, try it for ten minutes. See what happens. Wishing you joy, if you want it.