I've just started doing the active exercises after deciding to do the 6 day retreat in Minnesota in October.
I have a negative reaction to "going into the emptiness of the universe", or "feeling the emptiness". Intellectually, I know what this means, but on an emotional level, I have a fear reaction. Maybe based on early experiences with loneliness, isolation, alienation, etc. It feels like this negative, instantaneous reaction is blocking my ability to to engage completely and be , really "at one" with Master Lin on the DVD while we're doing the exercises together. It's kind a a paradox, eh?
I suppose I could change the word "emptiness" for myself to "at one", but I'd rather a "professional" opinion before I start messing with the recipe (which is what I do when I cook! :-) )
Shawn, any words of wisdom?
Thanks,
Rachel
