I think you've been depressed all these years because you haven't really dealt with this enuf to move on, you've buried it instead of released it. That is good advise to journal. I've done that before and need to do it now, probably. Also I find the Self Esteem Supercharger helps me when things are up for me. Anyhow, even though this is unpleasant it is a good thing, because it is part of your healing so you can move on to more harmony within yourself and your world. Just remember just about everyone has some tight places inside themselves....
You can do it,
scooter ~
