Jeanne, I do agree with you. I am training to become a pharmacist. But I find myself resist this idea. Thank you for point out that I might be in the right profession just in the wrong job maybe. I do want to help people, however, I did not feel that being a pharmacist is how I could help people.

Scooter, looks like I am not alone in this "I don't know what I want" journey. I do agree with you with the baby steps. True, there are already things in my life that I want but I did not see how it could lead me to something I really want to do. Maybe I should just take on Jack Canfield's advice in the movie the Secret: he compares life with driving in the dark. With just headlights on without any other lights, you can only see 200 fts in front of you. But you could drive all the way from LA to New York city. As long as i am taking these baby steps. I think I will eventually get there~

Man, I think I just need to learn to calm down and be relaxed about the whole journey!