Dear Chrysanthemon,

I have to express my thankfulness to you again. Believe it or no, receiving these words from you has somehow taken me back to the roots within myself. I was raised catholic, but in my search for God I got to know a lot of different “religions” by getting in touch with their followers, and by participating in their religious activities.

The only important thing that I would ask God for, when I was a little kid was for Him to show me the way to find Him here in this earth, in this life. After years of spiritual retreats, prays, and God knows what else, finally my prays were answered. I was put in contact with a spiritual Master who has realized God within Himself and could give me a genuine experience of God. This was the day that I was really born.

Why am I telling you all this? Because I want you to know that I am not doing what I am doing now, because all I want is money and material luxury. I want to be financial independent, because I want to dedicate more and more time to that spiritual work, and also, because I want to be able to go to those spiritual retreats without worrying about money, time, or anything else.

I am sure that you are helping a lot of people right now by giving all that love that you irradiate left and right. I am living proof of it!! I can feel it every time I read your posts.

I have a registered domain name and it is my goal to use it to inspire other people that are looking for that ultimate answer. The domain name is spiritualitymoneypeace. But, to be able to get that project going, I need to have some sore of financial security. And on my quest to find that financial security, I lost smoothness and got into all this mess.

I am sure that I am harvesting the product of my past actions. I have to embrace this with love and patience; but, I don’t want this to hurt my wife and her love for me. I love her with all my heart and she is one of the greatest gifts that God has given me.

I must find a way to get out of this as soon as possible and do all I can to keep her out of it. She has a trip to Spain at the end of the year and if I talk to her about all this, it will ruin everything for her. Only God knows how exited she is about this trip. She deserves it!!

I will keep in touch with you. God Bless You again for your time and help. You are a champion. Having the power and will to get over all those challenges you had to face, requires a lot of wisdom and energy.

Carlos