Dear rbarata, oztinks, Dave and vita-man,

Thank you so much for your response.
I think Dave is right – I AM afraid of the change. Because once I start finish what has to be finished, my life could change dramatically. I’m not bragging or something but all my teachers said I was very talented artistically, and I have a good chance to become famous.

I never though of this before but… I am actually REALLY afraid of being famous. One of the most important things for me is PRIVACY, and I believe that being famous means losing your privacy. Also I’m afraid that if I become rich I could lose my current friends…

Gosh, this is much more complicated than I thought!

I think I’ll try the “Change is good, and I’m safe” belief for a while and see how it feels.

I’ll keep you posted.
Thank you again for the help!

Jade