I am sorry you feel this way, but there are two reasons why this is happening to you.
1) The feeling as though you are dying inside or crumbling into pieces is your subconscious cleansing itself. You are shattering the glass and breaking through the walls. This is sometimes known as a "mental detox". At first you will begin to feel weak, you will see the "crap" come out of your body in the most unpredictable ways. The more toxic you are, the more of this you will see. But rest assured, keep doing positive affirmations and you will see the light. You will feel refreshed and feel as though you were born again.
2) Remember the Law of Attraction. What you keep thinking about most will ultimately appear to you. Think of happiness, and you will experience it.
