thanks for the reply. It is now 3 weeks or so since I wrote about how i was feeling and I am now getting through it and starting to see an end to how I was feeling. Its been a very useful time, if painful, and has taught me about what i want in life and has made me have more empathy for other peoples feelings. forty days seems a good time as I still have bad moments but try to use these to tap into how I am feeling and why and then write them down so I can use them with my belief cd.so thanks again for your reply. alan.