First of all give yourself a pat on the back. You've crossed a lot of bridges already to get this far (you may not have noticed them but there will have been a few). People obviously have confidence in you since you're in training at a law firm.
On the score of finding it hard to speak in public... join the rest of the world. Fear of public speaking ranks higher than fear of death. How can you handle it? I suggest the paraliminal Sales Leap. This is a confidence building tape when dealing with other, making presentation, Talking with people you don't know and making a good impression in general.
As for being scared... well it's human nature to be anxious or scared when faced with something new. The paraliminal Anxiety Free would be my choice for that.
Your problem with autism and dyslexia seems to be under control. You recognise where you are having problems which means you can find a why to work around it. Automatic Pilot is a good paraliminal to keep using the good skills you have learnt.
Keep taking it one day at a time. Not every problem needs a solution immediately, they are often learning experiences. You do what is necessary at the time. Trust yourself that you can do it. You've gotten this far so keep up the good work.
BTW I don't think you post sounds crazy.
Alex
