I'm still shaking a little bit here. The experience has left me humbled and joyful. This was my second listening and I've been doing the active exercises a few days a week for a week.
I'm a very emotionally repressed person. I don't let emotions out a lot and tend to deflect praise when it comes my way. I was sitting in my rocker this morning listening to the Self Concentration meditation that came with the course and my armor was infiltrated. The healing energy got past my defenses and connected my cold, naked spirit with the love and warmth of the universe. My whole being was filled with an effervescence. Like someone surgically implanted Alka-Seltzer in my spine and it filled my arms and hands and nose and feet with pure energy.
And then I smiled. Without thinking or understanding or reasoning. I experienced truly spontaneous joy. For a person with a manic mind, this is a revelation akin to finding the meaning of life. To know love without having to reason or resist or negate or explain, is beyond my ability to translate into words. But a dam has burst in me and it's making my eyes water and my hands tremble. And i feel such peace and gratitude.
I don't know if any of this will make sense to anyone who reads it, but I had to share it.
thank you to the members of this forum who have been so encouraging and positive. You're energy has been received and it is appreciated. Thank you to master Chunyi Lin for collecting this wisdom and making it available to the world.
