Hi Markzor.
Markzor you are not dumb. You are very intelligent. Be kind to yourself and speak to yourself in a gentle and kind manner.
Photoread your schoolbooks and study and read the regular way. Forget about activation. It has been shared many times on this forum do not try to learn photoreading on textbooks,schoolbooks school material and people do not listen or reject our advice and insist on trying to learn photoreading on schoolbooks. Do a search on learning photoreading on textbooks.
Do not waste your time and energy trying to learn photoreading on school material. Only photoread your schoolbooks and read and study your regular way.
Photoread your schoolbooks multiple times and always keep your purpose in your mind when studying.Preview your books and make mindmaps of your books.
I have explained many times why new photoreaders should not try to learn photoreading on schoolbooks but i will let you do a search on this forum to find out more information why it is not a good idea for new photoreaders to try to learn photoreading on textbooks.
Photoread4me