Sounds like you're making positive change!
To quote an A.A. maxim, "After five years, I got my brains back, after ten years, I figured out how to use them, after fifteen years, I discovered I didn't need them anymore." The period of confusion you're going through sounds like the period many long-time A.A. people experience, where the amount of sensory imput that they are experiecning with their sober minds is now greater then their conscious awareness can handle. This is a good phase! Assuming that all phases are equal in time, as they seem to be in AA, then it should take you the same amount of time to move from non-lucid thought to lucid-confusion as it will to move from lucid-confusion to lucid-thought. Whatever you do, GO FORWARD. Do not backpeddle into non-lucid thought.
It may be hard to believe right now, but you are BETTER than you were before this confusion came about.
