Hi again! I just wanted to add something - maybe kinda over the needed info here - but I feel compelled to get it out: I love my patients soooooo much & it is hard to see them suffering - at the same time I am partly in awe of them & the resiliency of the human spirit! I am so frustrated by the quality of care that I am very open to a new format or way of delivering healing - even though I am trained in the western linear concept of medical "healing", I want to find a way to tap into a more all -dimensional energy healing modality. I already sense my patients very deeply - like I can feel their age, their personal disappointments, their personal hopes, their losses of freedom, their moments of heightened rebellion, their family support or lack of, their fragile inner childlike personal stabs at acquiring knowledge or reluctance to do so, fears,...I feel like I am inside of them seeing the world through their eyes at times - male or female, young or old - I get a sense. Sometimes it is so instantaneous. I don't want to leave the type of work I do because I love them - but I hate what is happening and I think the big "bosses" are incredibly removed from the reality of the situation, and not really concerned about human lives or have any medical knowledge at all. I want to learn to use some power that I feel exists that cannot be limited by time or money or human stinginess. That is at least one of the huge things I am seeking.
margi
