Sounds great!!
You might think of it like this:
Relaxation is a skill unto itself
Knowing ones Purpose is a fire unto itself
Photoreading is a skill-set unto itself, which works much better with first two already bedded down.
Tackling Photoreading and still not knowing a keen purpose or the joy relaxed focus would indeed be more difficult.
Glad you are doing well and of course just not giving up will bring all things needed into swing eventually.
