Hi Again, French Claire,
What you are calling "getting to the core of who I am and what I want", is really the whole point of doing the course for me. Yeah, I have some interest in creating some things for myself and others, but it's the "True Self" part that is my primary motivation. I can honestly say that were it not for the focus on "asking" that is built into the course (not just what do I want, but what does the Universe want to express through me?). Somewhere in the course Jack tells a story where he shares a quote from the bible about the "desires of the heart". One of things I am becoming increasingly aware of is that my heart has it's own intelligence that is often quite different from my thinking mind, and it is that intelligence that I am listening for. We're it not for the listening process built into this course, I wouldn't touch it with a ten foot pole.
What you said about "deflating" the ego (through symbols, going further in making your goals list, and using the Sedona Method) touched something in me that I'd like to say a bit more about. What I have been experimenting lately with is what I'll call "receiving the ego". I've made a habit in the past of demonizing my ego, and I've expended a considerable amount of effort attempting to systematically deconstruct it using various spiritual-based and/or personal growth-based techniques. I guess you might say I've had some "success" at this process of deconstruction, but lately I've had a hunch that I've been barking up the wrong tree. So I have found myself treating my ego less as an enemy and more as an acting out child that needs love. Anyway, what I'm noticing is to do that, I have to let my awareness be centered someplace else, and that someplace else feels like "True Self". And what I'm calling "my ego" seems to be acting out less and coming into more of an alignment with this heart intelligence. This is the place from which I want to bring about changes.
In saying this I don't mean to imply that I think there is anything "wrong" with the process of discovery you're having regarding your own ego and True Self. Bottom line, it sounds like its working just fine. I bring this as a means to share my own process regarding my history of making my ego a scapegoat for my challenges and using various techniques to get rid of something I had an adversarial relationship with.
I like what you have said about writing things down in this forum. I agree that sharing and articulating what is really true in a safe public forum can be a big part of what wakes us up to who we truly are, which in turn brings about the changes we truly want. This is how I intend to use this forum - to get to the heart of the matters of the heart and manifest success as a natural consequence of that depth of inquiry.
Enjoy yourself!
Stevers
