Hey man, its great to see you're doing better. I was looking through the archives one time trying to find some info. on something and I remember seeing your post about you being depressed and stuff, I'm glad you're doing better! You know, you'd be suprised how many people are simply afraid of saying dumb things or not looking cool in ways that will get them approval from other folks. Most likely you're surrounded by these individuals at your school. And I likely think that you don't say dumb things but I do know that when you've suffered from lonliness(as I have believe me)and you finally start to talk to folks you can get in the habit of "rushing through" conversations or actively altering how you say things, or while you're talking trying to pick apart everyone's little reaction of what you're saying and how you're saying it. Thats just not natural, when you're being your natural self things will flow for you, and the folks that still don't like you, hey that just shows how they're spiritually limited, half the time I find that some folks don't like me because they have a "model" in their head of whats cool and whats not, and it that doesn't match reality, don't give that thought any evergy, focus on what you want and make sure it's coming from your "core" and not from a place of wanting approval. I used to think everyone was just so happy and together and then I felt like the last man on earth because I didn't have it together. Well chances are you're gonna find you true self and then some other guy that sitting next to you in class may look at you and think "man, that guy is so together, he's probably never had hard times like me". So be open to your infinite potential, the human spirit is who you are not the stuggling person image that we may have bought into in the past.
Hey if you get a chance, (I'm not a guru or anything just a guy who made it through my own stuff) check out these books and stuff. I've read some and done research on others which I'll get when I get my check.
The power of now
Happiness is free
The Sedona method(tape course is also good,I've heard.)(book is good)
Bodyflow: freedom from fear reactivity
Effortless Wellbeing
Also check TheAmt.com about Energy Psychology/Healing(which is not mystical babble it combined accupressure with focusing on your feeling/thought, affirming, and intention. Now being confirmed and used by nurses and real psychologists)
In that same relm an energy psychology called EFT(EmotionalFreedomTechniuque) will literally zap resistance, negativity, you name it. Emofree.com
Then EFT on video for about 24 bucks: "Getting through to your emotions with EFT"(amazon.com) is an excellent resource.
And lastly the latest Energy Pscychology book everyone should buy: Five Simple Steps to Emotional Healing-The Last Self Help book you will ever need.(amazon.com)Just type "The last self help book" and you'll see it.
I'm sure your doing great but I just felt like displaying some options if you were wondering. Peace.
