It's so true - I did used to look at every reaction to try to guage "how well I'd done" or whether I'd mucked up again. And the rest was absolutely accurate too. It's so good to hear from people who know what it feels like. Thank you for your support - and for the recomendations on what to read etc. I'll try to have a look at them all - I've got a lot of holiday ahead of me so I've got plenty of time to explore it further.
