Jodiamond, thank you for your feedback too. I had a feeling that I'm experimenting with too many. I shall find one that works best and stick with it.
What I'm about to say next will probably flip some of you. Ever since I got hooked with meditation, there is some unexplainable thing that keep driving to learning about the mind. Something tells me that my purpose in life and/or path to success is helping others through ESP, positive talk or sorts. Sounds freakish as my current line of profession is business auditing and I came from blue collar automotive dealership.
Thanks everyone.