Classic, benewme, Alex, et.al.
Thank you for responding, I apologize for not getting back to you for so long. You may not even get this, I don't know. Well, how many months has passed and, par for my course, the Natural Brilliance course sits on my shelf. As usual, I started with zeal thinking that "this was the one". I think that's how so many self help businesses stay in business. There's always something better out there that real screwed up folks like me will jump on thinking that it's the one. benewme, I appreciate your collaborating my experiences. It's nice to know that I'm not the only one. Most people with less heart would just call us lazy f*** ups. I continue to "try", I continue to pray, I continue to stop and start many things. I must tell you benewme, that I think the root of it may be depression. That invisible force that seems to physically keep us from the doing may actually be a misfire in our brains caused by chemical imbalances. But I speculate. All I do know is that, like you, I seem to have an outside force controlling my actions. I'm not talking psychotic like I'm an ax murderer or anything, but when it comes to things that involve bettering my self, I seem to be incapable of completing them. I don't know. Sorry for rambling. If any of you get this let me know.
