Greetings GaiaHeart,
I know this is a bit late in the thread, but just wanted to share that I got stuck on these two meditations as well. They are long and intense! I am not very visual either, and found that part of the problem was all the trying to see what Jeddah was describing. What I finally got to was 1) I gave up trying to make it that way and just allowed what I was experiencing to be OK, and I found that the sensations were much stronger when I let go of the visulaization. 2) This may be controversial, but after a couple of weeks of sincere practice with those, I just moved on, without necessarily feeling that I had entirely "gotten" them, knowing that the recommendation is to go back to any one of the meditations after having completed all of them. 3) Trusting that just the listening and sensing were giving my energy system what it needed in regard to that part of the teaching at that time. My experience has been that even if you feel like you are not "getting it" that some part of you is, even if your mind is not!
Thank you for this post, as it helped me get clearer with a couple of difficulties I was having.
Blessings,
WaterBird
