I have a problem. I am in a place in my life where I am alone in my physical world. I am so tired from my work and my children have lives of their own. I find that my only joy is listening to Jeddah and sitting in profound bliss. My problem is I do not desire anything but to sit here...forever. When I go out into the world my eyes are open to both the great beauty and the human suffering that is all around me. I see everyone else's stories and have no desire to be in one. I know the goal is integration of body, mind and spirit. I can do this on my job, but when I come home I lonely and tired. I am very stuck and sitting in my stuckness or sitting in my peace has not helped. I am afraid that I may be manifesting death.
