I can relate.
When I get to the point where I wonder whether the struggle will ever end, I usually just plain give up. The hardest part is realising that I'm the one who created the stuggle. I lay down the rules of if... if I don't have enough money... If I don't travel... If no one calls me on my birthday... If I don't get this that or the other finished by...
90% of the time it is I who made the rules that leave me overwhelmed and underachieving 
This is the time when I really need to "Do the Work". Because not only am I trying to pick myself up by the boot straps. I'm standing on the straps!
If you haven't got the Abundance For Life course you may not be familiar with the Feeling Exercise or the Work.
In your case I do suggest you try The Work.
The book Loving What Is by Bryon Katie is a a foundation of how The Work, works. (sorry I know that sounds odd)
Check out her website. www.thework.org head to the resources link and do the Work.
"The Work" is taught in the Abundance for Life course. That and the Feeling Exercise are great tools for the battle worn.
Alex
