Possibly due to your "conditioning" since infancy, or toddler stage.
The constant "NO's! Dont's!" and other negatives,
embedded deep within your subconscious,rebel,as the subconscious,or reactive mind,wants to stay in command,have all control,all the say! So that may be why, the method used in your case,is slow in effect and result.
That's exactly what's rising up in my thoughts
