Don't concern yourself with the 'past' or mistakes you seem to have made that led you to this state. Maybe you are in this state so that you will master healing and help someone else who is even 'worse off' than you are now, and by being able to overcome this, you will effectively help them--more than you would've if you hadn't 'had to learn it'
It's interesting you say this. I've often thought this, because I have always wanted to be a healer in some way or another. When I was younger i was very interested in learning Primal therapy. After experiencing the healing power of acupuncture/herbs, I became really interested in TCM, and have come very close to starting formal degrees in it.
Last year I got a rather severe injury which compounded my liver stagnation even more, and has been very frustrating. It was this injury, along with the emotional impact it has had, which led me to the earnest practice of qigong, and thus led to me finding Spring Forest.
I've often thought back to the scene of the injury and puzzled over 'why' it happened. I feel that as you say, it may have been to push me in this direction. Because I really like the idea of helping others heal, and as my own training develops it is something i'd love to do.
Experiencing the Phone Sessions with Master Lin and Master Nance has been amazing. I feel the energy so powerfully, and to think that it's happening from the other side of the world (i'm in Australia)!
Thank you for all your advice, it is much appreciated. :-)
