Today I learned how to be calm while wanting something. It feels I can breathe!! I noticed I had problems slowing down to communicate with other people. Today it was easier.
OK, I went through some quite unpleasant phases, which are better left out from this forum. 
Yesterday i already decided to quit using all self-help tapes. Maybe that was the key? I quit the thing I most wanted. .... Who knows?...
I can now so clearly see,that when I got motivated to do any thing, I immediately wanted to do it all right away. With big tasks it was clearly impossible! I guess I'm now starting to chunk down, as Alex suggested.
There is one more important learning I went through in this discussion. If you look at the second post of mine in this thread, you notice, it is phrased a bit oddly. It is because it was really difficult to ask something for me just for me. But I felt compelled to do it anyway. Actually, when I came back to the forum, I felt anxious, what would the answer(s) be. I mean, unpleasantly anxious. But the result turned out to be OK, and the replies were what I wanted. No unpleasant consequences! 
Whatever I things imagined to happen, I don't know.. And I don't want to know.
This message may have been a bit difficult to understand, I guess. It may be because I have dived so deep in my mind, and find it a bit difficult to describe what happened. But I assure you all, things are really well now! I just wanted to end this thread with a success!
-purjo
